So many things to show gratitude for this week.
For starters, Thommy is currently reading “The Hunger Games.” The first pick-up line Thommy used on me was: “I love books, too. I really like reading. I could spend all day in Borders.” In the true spirit of pick-up lines, he was lying; which isn’t to say it changed how I felt about him, once the truth came out. Every once and again he picks something up, escapes to the world of words, and I fall a little deeper in love with him. I suspect that’s how he feels when I agree to play XBox with him. It’s a blending of passions and interests, this whole love thing. I love how it continues to happen almost 8 years deep.
Also, my beautiful friend Jen started a juicing blog to document her journey of weight loss, and more importantly, as a way to encourage herself (and others) to take her health into her own hands. She has had such amazing results and I can’t wait to see what lessons she learns along the way. How brave of her to share that personal journey with us. I hope you’ll consider checking it out, picking up a few great recipes, and sending her some love, light and encouragement. Way to go, lovely!! (I’ve also added the link on my blogroll.)
Thommy had an interview in Syracuse last week, and he has another one tomorrow, a little further south. I want to write all about it and get all carried away with anticipation and excitement for the next stage of our journey, but I’m learning to stay in the moment a little longer. So, please say a few extra prayers tonight and send some great vibes our way tomorrow – and hopefully I can update with concrete announcements soon!
Oh, yeah … and I’m starting to feel a little better! And some days, I’m happy to say, I feel A LOT better! I met with my nutritionist last week in Syracuse and I started back up with my supplements, including super high doses of Vitamin D. I have been 99% gluten-free, soy-free, dairy-free, sugar-free, caffeine-free and meat-free for about a month. I was SUPER strict for 10 days, and then I allowed a few cheats in: namely chocolate. It’s a fine line between strict, conscious eating and Anorexia. I put myself in that position years ago and so I have to check in daily to make sure I’m always on the right side of “healthy.” It becomes especially difficult when eating such a diet automatically causes weight loss. In a relatively short amount of time, I’ve managed to lose 3 pounds, on top of the 2 I’ve lost since moving home. Two days ago, I hit my lowest weight since 2009. What is the goal, and where is the proper limit? One of the largest motivational factors to any diet is the sense of accomplishment one feels when the number on the scale goes down. As someone recovering from an eating disorder, I must place a higher premium on how my body feels, not what it weighs. And that requires a deep amount of trust in my own body. I’m working on it. I want to write an in-depth report about all of this soon. MS and “disability” have been weighing heavy on my heart and heavier on my mind. It’s something I find difficult to relate to others at the moment, but I’ll get there.
“There is neither happiness nor misery in the world; there is only the comparison of one state with another, nothing more. He who has felt the deepest grief is best able to experience supreme happiness. We must of felt what it is to die, Morrel, that we may appreciate the enjoyments of life. Live, then, and be happy, beloved children of my heart, and never forget, that until the day God will deign to reveal the future to man, all human wisdom is contained in these two words, ‘Wait and Hope.” ~ Alexandre Dumas
Waiting and Hoping,
PS. I read this today, and I wonder, what are YOU hoping for; what are you living for; what are you expecting?? I’m right there with you, wishing it comes to you at the finest moment – and without delay:
“The very least you can do in your life is figure out what you hope for. And the most you can do is live inside that hope. Not admire it from a distance but live right in it, under its roof.” ~ Barbara Kingsolver